my diary

my diary...!

2/15/2026 ♡ 06:49 PM

yum meat

these fake ass meat enjoyers only doing it because i do. fake ass fans dont even know what kind of meat theyre sending images of. anyways, i let my sister play yandere simulator on my computer while i slept and she got S+ rating. sick as hell. she played for 7 hours straight.

2/15/2026 ♡ 10:24 AM

new name ig

i think im gonna change my name to nikolai since i think its cute and a nickname for it is kolya. i have an oc guy whom i love dearly named kolya so it feels special.

2/14/2026 ♡ 10:00 PM

hi guys i havent said anything in a while ive been bored and stuff and catching up w work. hi guys. oh yeah happy valentines day i guess

2/8/2026 ♡ 02:38 PM

what

every day i wake up to some bullshit on my phone. "russian art style" and theyre just talking about pyanyashas art style. talkin bout some "russian core domer core incel core" and its just a dull and depressing image of a lake be so real rn

2/07/2026 ♡ 08:17 PM

sleepy

very bored and tired. i took 2 naps today and went to sleep early last night why!

2/06/2026 ♡ 10:42 PM

kitties

today has been pretty good. i went to check in with my teacher and i didnt get in any trouble thankfully. im at my moms house and i got to play with my kitties which made me very happy aswell. ive shockingly been up for most of the day. oh, i also made rice putting earlier. i ate a little bit and put the rest in the fridge for tomorrow. pretty good day today.

2/05/2026 ♡ 04:11 PM

meatmeat

i had a nap and it was not great. woke up and wanted rip my eyelids off. besides that todays been ok, i talked to some people and thought about meat today. yum

2/05/2026 ♡ 06:42 AM

stuilly peak

mmmm i love stuilly. horror husbands. what if their plan worked and they grew up. thatd be sick as hell.

2/05/2026 ♡ 06:40 AM

brrr cold

im very cold this morning. im wearing two layers right now, im still shivering. very happy right now though, my birthdays getting closer. ill finally be able to get a job. i need to be finnancially irresponsible!!!!!!!!!!

2/04/2026 ♡ 07:03 PM

comic!!

i still feel a tiny bit sick when i think of him but overall im doing good methinks. drew my ocs earlier and they so cuteness. i was rewriting a bit of the story for the comic to make it slightly more logical [even if the story itself isnt logical lololol] and im pretty content with it, i just need to flesh it out a little more and add events that will happen. like multiple acts, act 1 part 1/2/3, act 2 part 1/2/3, ect. i think ill split it up by that, probbaly 3-15 chapters for each part depending on how long the comic gets. i wanna make it decently lengthed but i dont want to overwork myself and give up on it!!! its my first full comic, after all.

2/04/2026 ♡ 03:47 PM

hmmmm 2x

nevermind again why did i get so upset lol it literally isnt even that deep. im doing good rn guys im pretty energized and im feeling a little bored. hmmm idk what to do everything is boring

2/04/2026 ♡ 02:41 PM

hmm

nevermind he left me i might kill myself lol

2/04/2026 ♡ 12:21 AM

i love viktor

i cant wait until valentines day. i will 100% surprise viktor with something, haha. i wont say what until the day, though!!! i know that he reads these. i dont want to spoil it ^_^ all i want is to pet his hair and kiss him all over his face. hes so adorable. i need to hold him. why cant i legally kidnap people.

2/04/2026 ♡ 12:16 AM

my life rn

boy oh boy another rare photo of kiyan leaked. look at it here. my bangs are chopped asf again, i left the hairspray at my moms house. mildly upset right now, i wish i wasnt like this. i get so unbelievably jealous when anyone expresses any sort of interest in viktor, joke or not. leave MY sweet boy alone. hes not yours, hes mine cunt. back off whore.

2/02/2026 ♡ 12:04 AM

game

ok me and viktor are making a roblox game. haha. with our limited programming knowledge. its pretty cool. you should check it out. its getting updated frequently i guess, trying to add cool effects n whatnot. hope to see you guys there!!

2/01/2026 ♡ 05:06 PM

viktor post

viktor blog post go look at it thats all i really wanted to say in this post for right now sorry

1/31/2026 ♡ 10:38 PM

scream

you know what time it is... daily diary entry time. nothing really happened today, all i did was talk to viktor and whatnot. i dont have much to write. i did make viktor watch scream, im still upset that they didnt kill randy or the journalist. i hate randy hes so annoying. i also wish that it couldve been tatum&sidney and billy&stu instead. i can see why stu and tatum were dating but the other pairing is better, in my honest yaoi/yuri opinion.

1/31/2026 ♡ 12:13 AM

meat serv

hello guys. i have revamped my discord server... again. now its themed around meat & horror, my two favorite things in life that arent viktor. i added lots of emojis and stickers too. i dont have much to talk about today, all i did was go to my dads house and work on the server. you guys should 100% join it.

1/29/2026 ♡ 09:34 PM

hmmmmm

im cryinh my mom thinks im apparently staying up late to talk to my boyfriend. no he actually falls asleep before me i just like having time to myself where there isnt a kid screaming in my ear 24/7 about fnaf lore or his game. incorrect buzzer

1/29/2026 ♡ 06:10 PM

haircut #2

alright, i trimmed my bangs and added more layers. my hair is flat as fuck right now because i didnt style it afterwards, ill probably send another photo later if i get around to it. you can look at the image here. anyways, i shockingly managed to not make a mess. i wasnt expecting to cut off so much aswell, but, it still happened haha. im happy with the results, i can finally see without having hair in my eyes at all times.

1/29/2026 ♡ 12:32 PM

haircut

good morning guys im gonna trim my hair in a few minutes. i hope i dont fuck it up, especially my bangs. take pride in having cool bangs. i will cry if i fuck them up. i might show a picture if they turn out well. i also wanna but more obviously layers into my hair too; i have HAVE layers but theyre only slightly obvious when i curl the ends. yeah guys i curl the ends of my hair. haha. only because my hair is slightly curly and i want to straighten it and like curling the ends look good pls dont smite me

1/28/2026 ♡ 08:41 PM

viktor!!!

god im so in love with this man. i dont care about my enemies or haters none of you matter viktor only matters. i completely forgot what i was missing while i wasnt with him. i do not blame my 14 year old self for being head over heels for him because i STILL AM! i love you viktor kis kisskiss kiss youre officially the best thing thats happened to me. i never want to leave you, i will do everything in my ability to stay with you and live my life with you. yuo are perfect!

1/28/2026 ♡ 04:24 PM

husbands!

alright so my best friend/future boyfriend/future husband is working on his own website. its really cool i think, just dont click any of the links unless he finishes the pages because the 404 page is a bunch of flashing lights haha. i think i will make a shrine page that redirects to my shrines, ill probably make one about him. wow... shrines of both my husbands! the knocker and viktor! so cuteness.

1/27/2026 ♡ 09:02 PM

knocker

i made 1 shrine. maybe ill make more. maybe. if not then im just gonna be stuck with the knocker on my nav tab. haha. i love the knocker. hes my husband. id knock him up if i could.

1/27/2026 ♡ 07:27 PM

2pages2go!

wow... i finally finished all the bare minimum pages! i did this page + the intro/warning today, and, yesterday i finished up the home page and made the about me page. besides the two today, ive mostly just been touching up the home page and also watching true crime documentries. love watching that stuff haha. anyways, all i need to do now is the oc gallery [already a wip!] and the comic page. i dont have to rush on the comic page, i havent even finished writing the characters yet.

1/27/2026 ♡ 05:56 PM

first post!

first entry post thing... i think this will be more rapid-fire posts rather than 1 per day, haha. anyways, my days been pretty alright so far. yesterday i confessed to my best friend [who also happened to be my ex] that i [still] like him. he liked me back!! ^_^ im very excited and happy and im glad he does, i was stressing over it for a while.

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